I thought I would like weekends. I was all excited for today because I got the house to myself (without kids) and was looking forward to relaxing. Turns out relaxing is kind of boring, and loney.Instead I've just gotten increasingly homesick over the course of the day. I even counted how many weeks I have left until I get to go home. 15 weeks. 3 groups of 5 weeks. Sounds better when I put it that way. I wanted to go walk to the plaza today but it's so rainy and windy that I don't even want to go outside. It's depressing. Everyone else in the program seems to be partying it up and having a grand old time but all I want to do is go home and see my friends and family. I know it'll get better but right now it sucks. I keep asking, 'what did I get myself into?' I'm so tired of spanish I don't even want to hear it anymore let alone speak it. I feel like someone inside my head is screaming 'get me out of here!' I'm sure that someone is me. I'm sure tomorrow will be a better day.
Fingers crossed.
Hey hun! I'm thinking about you =) I know things are hard right now, but you'll learn to enjoy it there...hopefully haha. My Birthday is in 18 days just in case you were wondering. I can't believe you're not gonna be here. I miss you a ton best friend. Love you!
ReplyDeletecurious if better days have come to you since this post. was really feeling for ya. but i imagine it's totally normal to feel 'blue' like this... this too shall pass as they say riight?=)
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