Monday, May 31, 2010

Fire!


Dad is turning the back patio into an outside kitchen so we went shopping for outside furniture this weekend. The table we got is really cool. I might have been a strong influence in the decision making process but everyone loves it. I'll take pics when the whole projects done, along with the rest of the back yard (dad has a thing with ponds lately). The whole thing is going to look amazing.

Memorial Day Weekend

We were supposed to go camping but several things happened to prevent that. First of all everyone was sick or getting over being sick. Boo. Second it was rainy all weekend so that's no fun. Third my grandma ended up in the hospital on Friday. She collapsed and was unconscious for 20 minutes before mom found her (she was at our house thankfully) and called the ambulance. She's okay, they didn't figure out why she passed out. Fingers crossed it doesn't happen again. Mom and I did some babysitting (is it really called babysitting if you ask to watch the baby?) and got ready for convention which mostly included a lot of shopping. Mom is taking Kai so we had to get pretty outfits (like she doesn't already have a million). She's sooo close to walking on her own. Today we got her shoes that help her balance a little. They squeak whenever she takes a step which is supposed to encourage them. Either way they're really cute. Here are some moments:




Mom and I got our hair done. I wanted a little big of a change so I did darker highlights.




The end result!





Kai being a ham for the camera. She's very photogenic. She knooows what to do when there's a camera around.


She loves trying to drink out of anything she can, even if there's nothing in it.





Kai thought she was such a big girl laying on the bed all by herslelf. We dressed her in a tutu dress for meeting. Her parents are very against tutus but really, who doesn't think that's cute? She loved it anyway.


Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Cinnamon Roll Extravaganza

It took 4 and a half hours but Luke and I finally conquered our first batch of cinnamon rolls (Caramel cinnamon rolls! mmmm).
I had no idea how time consuming they were. It was worth it though.


Rising before going into the oven.

Fresh out of the oven!


After flipping them over


Yum! All warm and caramelly.

The guys and I thoroughly enjoyed them :)

Friday, May 21, 2010

Cool, Unlying life rushes in

"When we get out of the glass bottle of our ego and when we escape like the squirrels in the cage of our personality and get into the forest again, we shall shiver with cold and fright. But things will happen to us so that we don’t know ourselves. Cool, unlying life will rush in."

I found this quote on a random website. It was a comment someone had left with no regards to the website. I find it really profound even though I haven't completely worked out what it means yet. I feel like it was written so that I could read it. I'm not sure why.

I went swimming for the first time in a YEAR today. I can't believe it's been that long. Being under water is such a freeing experience. For some reason it seems easier for me to glide through water than the outside air. Anyway, I've been so lazy and unhealthy lately it felt good to do something. I have a feeling this is one of the origins of my stress so I've been trying to move a little bit everyday. True sometimes it's a walk to the mini mart to get an energy drink but hey. At least I walked there right?

Less than 3 months now until I go to Chile. I'm trying to get myself to apply for a student visa but it is HARD! Did you know you have to get like criminal records and fingerprinted and all that? That's just the first step too! I can't even get past that part. Maybe tomorrow.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

survival Methods















Sometimes when I feel like school is suffocating me I look at pictures and think of happier days.

Monday, May 17, 2010

Frog Song

I think the weather has finally taken a turn for the better. The temp is up and it's soo nice. Of course today it rained but what's better than warm rain? Unless you're wearing flip flops like I was. I can tell it's almost summer because the frogs are going crazy! I've heard them before, every now and then, usually Luke hears them and I have to listen really hard to hear them. Tonight, however, they're super loud and easy to hear. It's actually kind of relaxing in a way. I have no idea where they are but it sounds like they're singing a song.
I am sick for the FOURTH time in less than five months. Anyone do the math here? Yeah, it's equaling out to once a month. Is it really possible to get sick 12 times in a year? Please say no. Hopefully once school ends I wont be so stressed. I'm pretty sure this is a completely stress induced sickness this time. The head cold of all head colds. I feel like I'm 5 or something because I'm all snotty like little kids are when they're sick. Yuck.
Tomorrow I must start applying for my student visa. Doesn't that sounds scary? I would have done it today (my advisor just sent us the website and told us to get started) but I had to finish a project due tomorrow and it took hours. And hours. I don't think I've ever had so much to do in my life. Projects and papers and work galore and don't even ask what I got on my last anthro test. I just take a deep breath and try to get through it. I can do that right?
I was going to go to bed with my window open because it's so nice outside but there's so much going on. People seriously have conversations outside my window and I feel like I'm eavesdropping. Also not very easy to sleep through.
I'm now going to slip into a nyquil induced coma and keep my fingers crossed that at 5 in the morning tomorrow I feel super. Maybe I shouldn't be working around food when I'm sick. Or maybe I shouldn't be getting up that early in order to recover but I get that guilt like I'm skipping class or something so I have to. I already skipped work this afternoon because there was absolutely no way of getting through that. This morning I got up and got ready in 20ish minutes and then had to lay back down cuz my energy was drained. Energy? What energy?Sigh.

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Trying to keep my head above water

My family is so messed up I can't even believe it. I think about it (every other second) and a tiny part of my heart breaks off. I try so hard to preoccupy my mind with other things it's exhausting. It's just now that I realize how much in life I have to lose-in terms of people. Thank goodness for my support system (Luke, the only person I've confided in-by default) and finding help in unexpected places. And no I don't want to talk about it and I hope I never have to burden anyone else with it. Sorry I'm being so vague. It feels good to let a little bit out though.

In other news, mom, gram and I went to this home show type thing for women. It was fun, we signed up for a bunch of drawings and picked squares to put on a quilt (they're trying to make the biggest one in the world), and got free samples. Anyway, one of the drawings was for an amazon kindle, which I've wanted FOREVER. And mom won it. Not even kidding. So she's giving it to me out of the kindness of her heart and the knowledge that I was going to ask for it for my birthday anyway. It'll will be amazing for Chile. Woo!

Only a month of school left I can't even fathom it. I have soo much to do for my classes I don't know how I'm going to fit it into a month. Am I seriously going to be a senior in college? Crazy! Right this second I should be studying for my anthropology test which as of now I'm going to fail. Being the worst procrastinator on the planet, however, that is not happening. I have two projects due in the next couple weeks. One of them is an anatomy art project for Human Sexuality. Guess what of?? Yeah. Lady AND man parts. I've put it off for this long because I can't think of anything very creative. All the ideas I come up with don't work because it's so detailed. I think I'll have to break down and just draw it (bye bye creativity points).

On Friday mom and gram are coming over and we're going to The Secret Garden-The musical. Super excited. I haven't been to a play since freshman year and I love musicals. It'll be some good girl time.

Cross your fingers (obscene gesture by the way in Vietnam-the things you learn when researching for a communications project) that I make it through this month. AHH!

Friday, May 7, 2010

Heart patient hoping help arrives in time

This is a newspaper article about Luke's roommate's girlfriend, Bailey. She's a really amazing person and my heart goes out to her.


Heart patient hoping help arrives in time.
By Rachel Schleif
World staff writer

Friday, May 7, 2010





World photo/Don Seabrook

Bailey Northcott, with her therapy puppy, Kahu, listens to dog trainer Jodi Holmes as she gives her advice at Petco on Wednesday. Norhtcott, 19, received the dog a few weeks ago to help her while she waits for a heart replacement.

WENATCHEE — Until two years ago, everyone thought the attacks were all in Bailey Northcott’s head. They start with a crushing weight on her chest. Her breath quickens. Pain stabs at her lungs. The pain spreads from her left arm into her neck, just below her jaw.

“Everyone kept saying to me, ‘Bailey, you’re having a panic attack, go breathe into a paper bag. You’re going to be fine,’” the 19-year-old said.

She was a fifth-grader in Waterville when the attacks began. Doctors couldn’t figure out what was wrong. They tried asthma inhalers and antidepressants.

“It happened constantly. Whenever I would run in P.E. I felt like I couldn’t breath so I’d go to the office and they’d hand me a paper bag,” she said. “It wasn’t like they were being mean, they just didn’t know because all the doctors thought I was having panic attacks.”

Bailey was 17 when she transferred to Wenatchee High School for its theater program. She loved acting and performing on stage as someone else. She moved in with her grandmother, who drove her to school every day.

Walking to class one morning, Bailey’s heartbeat sped up uncontrollably. She felt dizzy and blacked out in the hall. A week later, doctors discovered her condition: hypertrophic cardiomyopathy. The muscle in Bailey’s left ventricle is thickening, which makes the chamber too small to pump out all the blood her body needs.

Bailey’s health has faded fast during the past two years. She’s lost the ability to walk, so she rode in a scooter during her last year in high school. She can’t eat meat or large meals because her heart can’t take the extra work. She sleeps sitting up to help her circulation. She says she suffered four attacks last week.

Doctors are waiting as long as possible to put Bailey on the heart transplant list. If they replace her heart before she’s 30, she will likely need another heart in her lifetime, she said. Her next reassessment is in July.

Last year, she traveled to the Mayo Clinic in Minnesota, where heart doctors helped her walk again. In November, surgeons at Seattle Children’s Hospital implanted a defibrillator in her chest to shock her heart if it stops.

“It’s failing faster and faster, every day it’s failing more and more,” she said of her heart. “After every one of those mini-heart attacks, I’m instantly worse than I was five minutes ago.”

Despite it all, she still laughs a lot. Her pixie haircut and 90-pound figure radiate positivity. She’s a hugger. Ironically, people tell her that her heart is the best part about her, she said.

“The minute I found out I was sick, people started calling me, crying and saying ‘I don’t want you to die,’” she said. “I realized then that I don’t get to be sad about this. I have to be strong so everyone can see that it’s going to be OK and I can fight through this.”

She said her family is her strength and joy, especially her 74-year-old grandmother. She was “the cool gramma” who drove a PT Cruiser with flames painted on the side. She swore and shouted during Gonzaga basketball games. For Obama’s inauguration ball, she dressed to the nines and danced with Bailey to “At Last” in their living room.

“I used to tease her that she’s the reason my heart is getting too big because I loved her so much and she’d give me so much love,” Bailey said.

Gramma Mikell died of a sudden stroke last month. Bailey was the last to speak with her in the hospital.

“She just wanted to look at me, and she told me how much she loved me and I told her how much I loved her,” she said.

Bailey has been packing boxes for the move back to her mother’s house in Waterville. Her doctor recently suggested she adopt a therapy dog, a chihuahua-Pekingese mix named Kahu, which is Hawaiian for guardian.

Although she graduated last year, Wenatchee High School students chose her as the beneficiary for the Mr. Panther fundraiser next week. She plans to save the money for online classes and a future heart transplant. She’s covered under her father’s insurance.

Bailey’s goal is to work at a children’s hospital, so she can help children come to terms with their illness.

“I feel like I must have been chosen to get sick so I could help someone,” she said. “That’s how I cope with this. I know I have to help someone somehow.”