“This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.”
-Unknown
I've been thinking about the rest of my life a lot lately. I'm at a point where there are so many cross roads so every decision is shaping my future more than every before. I used to dread being out of college because I felt like I would be left stranded in the world. Now I feel like I have at least the next few years planned out and I'm excited. The problem is I'm having trouble just enjoying the right now because I'm so focused on the future. I guess right now I'm just waiting. I'm in limbo between the end of school and the start of a crazy adventure. I'm trying to enjoy my time with each person because I'm not going to see them for a long time but it's all so exhausting. I've found it best to just act normal. Act like I'm not leaving for 4 months; for now at least.
I leave in 5 weeks and 4 days. Luke's mom pointed out that I'm leaving on Friday the 13th. Good thing I'm not superstitious. Right? I'm terrified and excited and I wish I could take all my friends and hide them in my suitcase. Or maybe just a select few. If any experience is going to make me independent it'll be this one. Maybe when I get back I won't need my mommy as much. Ok who are we kidding I'll always need my mommy.
It's work work work for the rest of this week. Long ten hour days today, Thursday and Friday. On the bright side it's supposed to be hot! like 90s. Which means I can get my tan on. Woo!
P.S. Jana's engaged. Again. Just thought I'd throw that out there.
friday the 13th... i now believe in it! I was flying out that day and my plane got struck by lightening... :)
ReplyDeletehaving plans, even ones that are loose & subject to change are oh-so-comforting. glad you're feeling these things of late.
ReplyDeletethe dilemma of focusing on this moment, right here right now, is the story of my life. it's a daily struggle girl. but worth it to keep striving for that contentment in what is right now. so i guess what i'm saying is: just keep struggling.
hows your tan?
congrats to jana.
love you.
disregard jaylin. she didn't mean what she said. she was kidding. lol=-)