My family is so messed up I can't even believe it. I think about it (every other second) and a tiny part of my heart breaks off. I try so hard to preoccupy my mind with other things it's exhausting. It's just now that I realize how much in life I have to lose-in terms of people. Thank goodness for my support system (Luke, the only person I've confided in-by default) and finding help in unexpected places. And no I don't want to talk about it and I hope I never have to burden anyone else with it. Sorry I'm being so vague. It feels good to let a little bit out though.
In other news, mom, gram and I went to this home show type thing for women. It was fun, we signed up for a bunch of drawings and picked squares to put on a quilt (they're trying to make the biggest one in the world), and got free samples. Anyway, one of the drawings was for an amazon kindle, which I've wanted FOREVER. And mom won it. Not even kidding. So she's giving it to me out of the kindness of her heart and the knowledge that I was going to ask for it for my birthday anyway. It'll will be amazing for Chile. Woo!
Only a month of school left I can't even fathom it. I have soo much to do for my classes I don't know how I'm going to fit it into a month. Am I seriously going to be a senior in college? Crazy! Right this second I should be studying for my anthropology test which as of now I'm going to fail. Being the worst procrastinator on the planet, however, that is not happening. I have two projects due in the next couple weeks. One of them is an anatomy art project for Human Sexuality. Guess what of?? Yeah. Lady AND man parts. I've put it off for this long because I can't think of anything very creative. All the ideas I come up with don't work because it's so detailed. I think I'll have to break down and just draw it (bye bye creativity points).
On Friday mom and gram are coming over and we're going to The Secret Garden-The musical. Super excited. I haven't been to a play since freshman year and I love musicals. It'll be some good girl time.
Cross your fingers (obscene gesture by the way in Vietnam-the things you learn when researching for a communications project) that I make it through this month. AHH!
girl, i wish i could help you. if i've learned anything these past few months is that sometimes you just have to go inside yourself for awhile & work it out. just keep the people that make you feel strong close by & definitely within hugging distance. i know you have at least a couple of those people in your life. if theres anything i can do... even tho i'm so far away. i mean i can be a good listener.. anything babe. let me know k? families can be some of the most frustrating situations imaginable. i know that. im so glad there is a happy note in your mom winning the kindle! how fab!!! hwo are you liking it??! i don't think it's something i could get into... considering i still haven't gotten into the ipod... but i AM curious. what do you think? anyway so what did you come up with for your lady & man parts project?? hahaha. love it! how was the secret garden musical!? that sounds amazing!!! only two(ish?) weeks of school left huh... yaaaaaaay
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