Spring? Why are you crying?

Why on earth do we get a second wind? Like, you're really tired at 6ish and then by the time you need to go to bed at 8ish (considering you get up at 5am) you're wide awake and ready to run a marathon (like that would EVER happen even if I did have energy). So I'm laying in bed trying to get tired again.

I did have a good evening though I have to say. I came home at 6:30ish and took a bath (it's been so cold and rainy today it sounded SO good) and then I did some yoga on account of my 30 minutes a day exercise. Needless to say it only took 15 minutes but it's a start.

I'm taking care of the roommate's cats until she permanently moved out (sometime in May, counting down the days) and I feel soo bad for Max because he's been alone and neglected over spring break (Sterling is the other one but I hate her. She meows too much) so I let him in my room and until he starts kneeding my head he can sleep with me. I think i confused him with the yoga thing though. He kept head butting me and walking in between my legs trying to figure out what I was doing. He's sweet but he keeps trying to sit on my computer.

Luke just brought over my blankey (Yes I still sleep with it, don't judge me) because I left it at his house (Yes I bring it places with me). He's so sweet. Speaking of which today is our 1 year 8 months! Yay!! It feels like it's been way longer. But in a good way. He came out to work today and waited for 2 hours till I had to close to help me. And then made me waffles for dinner. YUM!

Tomorrow is the first day of school. It's going to be a looong day. Work from 6-8:30, Anthropology from 9-10, spanish 10-11 and then human sexuality from 4-6. Okay now that I think about it not too long. Monday and Wednesday are my long days I guess. I just went through my backpack and threw away all my assignments and studying materials from last quarter. It felt amazing. I think it made me ready to face this quarter. As if I don't have enough in my schedule I applied for D&M which is 'the' coffee place in Ellensburg. I really want it mostly for another summer job. I'm not too sure about it though, my schedule is really patchy between classes and my other job so we'll see. Fingers crossed!

Spring quarter, here I come!

Day 1: Fail

I'm beginning to rethink the whole cooking thing. My dinner plan was chicken, a spinach salad with strawberries and rasberries, pine nuts and a vinaigrette and couscous. Sounds good right? Yeah. Wrong.

It was a complete disaster.

First the chicken, which we dipped in flour, egg and bread crumbs and tried frying in olive oil would not cook. The outside burned and the inside never really got all the way done. It wasn't even because the pan was too hot either. I think the chicken was just too thick. I told Luke we should stick to chicken nuggets, and I don't mean the homemade kind.

Second the couscous, which was out of the box, was gross. I have no idea what was wrong with it. I'm going to give myself the benefit of the doubt and say it was the flavour of the couscous which was parmesan...Which I would recommend avoiding.

Last the salad, which looked so pretty, might have been good if it wasn't for the wee bit of excess of vinegar. It was probably the best part of the meal though.

I ended up picking at the salad and taking a few bites of the rest before just throwing it away and eating cheez-its for dinner. So much for cooking. Luke and I decided we need to get rich and just hire a chef. Someday I'll probably look back at this and laugh. Right now it's just pathetic and frustrating. Boo.

Springtime!!!

Happy Spring!

And with spring comes new resolutions...Ok I might have the timing a little confused but I think New Year's Resolutions are so cliche I can never stand to make them. I'm feeling somewhat motivated with the new quarter starting this week that I want to turn over a new leaf. I have been horrible this quarter! After my successful summer of working out and not drinking pop or energy drinks I slowly went down hill. Fall quarter I didn't exercise but I ate healthy (Thanks to Nutrition 245 which made me feel like I was going to die if I ate any bad foods) but didn't exercise. However this last quarter I have completely let myself go! No exercise (Aside from yoga once a week for a couple hours..is that even enough to count?) and a ton of pop and sugar and bad food (I went on a mexican food binge the last couple weeks..can I blame that on stress?)!! I weighed myself after a week of looking at the scale fearing that I gained a million pounds and finally stepped on it tonight, and luckily haven't gained a pound. But of course like everyone I'm not that happy with my body so change needs to happen!!

So here are my main goals:
1) Drink water!!!
- I'm so bad at this. I really don't like water but it speeds up metabolism which I neeeed on account of usually not eating until around 12 which may not sound that late but seeing as how I get up at 5 is!!!

2) Eat healthier
- Not like, a health nut but nice meals (No college food i.e. mac & cheese, top ramen, etc..) which brings me to my next goal:

3) Cook more!
- If I was married this would be so much easier. Since I eat basically all my meals with Luke (Ok just dinner but lunch gets kinda sketchy and breakfast is nonexistant so dinner it is) I generally eat at his house. This restricts what we can make for several reasons which I'm not going to start talking about. However since my roommate is gone this quarter (not to be confused with all her stuff which is very much there...everywhere..something I am NOT going to get in a long rant about) so I could cook at my apartment more often...on account of not having someone to avoid. If only cooking didn't cost so much.

-Another reason being married would make cooking easier (I got a wee bit side tracked there for a sec) is I could invest in ingredients!!!! I feel like I can't cook anything new because I have to buy everything down to the last pinch of a spice. Hellloooo!!? Poor college student anyone? Ah dilemmas dilemmas.

4) Exercise
-It's evil. Seriously. Exercise and I have a hate-hate relationship. It might be because I hate gyms. Or maybe because I'm lazy. Who knows. The point is I need to exercise at least 30 minutes a day. Doing this will improve things such as sleep...and other things I'm not going to mention but really need to be helped.

I'm sure there are other goals I've forgotten but that sounds good for now. I told Luke that he had to make me do these things!! He can't give in to my trying to convince him to let me have bad food. Which I do now on a daily basis. Not that he cares. Luck??

Just Need To Sneeze!

I hate being sick. It's not that bad of a cold but I'm super congested and I JUST NEED TO SNEEZE! I'm going to go crazy.

I'm going home tomorrow morning! I almost took nyquil so I could go to sleep. Once my second cousin told me that the earlier you go to sleep the faster morning will come. I feel like the last few days have been crawling by. It's taking FOREVER. This morning I cleaned my apartment. Well not my whole apartment just my room and by bathroom because my roommate had stuff everywhere so I couldn't even touch the rest of the place.

Which brings me to my next great point: MY ROOMMATE IS GONE!!! I mean her stuff is still here, but her and her gross habits are gone. She's coming back but not permanently. She left her cats too but she's eventually moving out permanently by May I think. Fingers crossed. Maybe the next roommate will be better? For now I will experience living alone, something I never though would happen.

Hopefully by the time anyone reads this I'll be home. Hello spring break goodbye Ellensburg!

Math

So while I was procrastinating I did a little math. I can get 100% on my biology final, or I can get a 56% on it and either way I'll get a B in the class. Seriously what is the point of studying anymore? Of course I'm going to study because I need to know a little over half of the information. It would be just my luck to completely fail it. But I'm not going to. In 22 hours I will be done with finals!!! Wish me luck!

The last 6 months of thoughts combined

I'm suffering through finals week. It's long and drawn out from Tuesday to Friday. I feel like it's never going to end. Then I can't leave till Sunday because of a grad party I have to go to. Why can't I be a better friend and WANT to go to something like this? Why do I want to be home so much? Home is where my favorite people are. Mom. Kailey.

When did I become so attached? It's like I'm going backwards. Where is my independence I gained after going to college? My real desire is to move back home to be near my mom and my niece and get a job at a coffee shop. My one passion in life at this moment. Working at a coffee shop. Is it okay if I do that for the rest of my life?

My alternative desire is to get married. I know I might look back one day and wish I had enjoyed single life more and not wanted to get married so young. But I'm sick of roommates and of living away from Luke. We have such similar ideas of the enviroment we want to live in. Why can't we just move in together? That might even top living with my mommy. Is it sad that I just want the ring? I could care less about getting married. I just want a guarantee that that's what is going to happen eventually. I hate knowing that so much can change in a short amount of time. Not that a ring will guarantee anything. I hate that it's my life that is postponing these events. It's like trying to pack when you still have to use stuff. Like your toothbrush. Maybe that was a bad analogy. My brain is drained from the stress of trying to study but failing. Does that make sense? I'm to the point where I just want to take my test, pass or fail. I envy Luke's roommate Nolan who can look through a powerpoint for ten minutes and then be ready to take a test. His classes are hard and sciency too. I'm stressing over a 101 class that isn't even in my major.

Sometimes I wish I didn't care so much about grades. The fact is I'm always with Luke who is the smartest person ever and gets good grades and has amazing studying skills. I feel like such a slacker next to him. I hate that. I can't even imagine what it'll feel like next week when I have no school to worry about. Is that even possible? I feel so pathetic because I'm complaining about easy classes compared to hard ones that most people are taking. Would I trade people skills for inteligence? Right now it's possible. Why do I even care? I could fail this final, get a B or C in the class and be just fine. No that's not true. I already have two C's in my college career and I'm ashamed of them. Why didn't I try harder? Who cares.

Sorry I haven't been writing. I'll probably stop writing sometime again. But for now I'm back.